Bros over hoes. 
They are my happy place. :) 

About to End

From Cha's, Nachi's and Jicky's blog. 

1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?  
Follow my mind. 

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? 
I don't do new year resolutions simply because I can't really do them. And besides, you don't need a new year if you really want to change. 

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? 

4. Did anyone close to you die? 
Thank God none. 

5. What countries did you visit?
None. I hope next year, I get to experience snow with my parents. I'm gonna make that happen!

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010? 
Money and genuine happiness. 

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory and why? 
March 29, Graduation day. The start of my new life. 

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? 
Graduating and finally reaching my dream one step at a time. :) 

9. What was your biggest failure? 
Believing what I felt was love when it clearly wasn't. So much for trying to move on, I just got hurt. 

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really but I got into a car accident. 

11. What was the best thing you bought? 
My almost weekly treat for my parents, their choice of place of course. It feels great to finally give back the love. 

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? 
My oldest brother Albert. He's really behaving himself in their seminary and I could really feel he loves where he is right now, it's where he should really be. 

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? 
The only bitchesbecrazy in my life. 

14. Where did most of your money go? 
Food, treats, night outs with workmates :) 

15. What did you really, really, really get excited about? 
Working, BSB and Jason Castro concert, and our trip to Puerto Galera. Best days! 

16. What song will always remind you of 2010? 
a. Empire State of Mind- Jayz feat. Alicia Keys
b. Party in the USA- Miley Cyrus
c. You Could Be Happy- Snow Patrol 
d. Details in the Fabric- Jason Mraz 

17. Compared to this time last year are you:
Happier? Same Same. 
Thinner? Nope.  
Richer? YEAHUH!

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? 
Traveling, saving money and losing weight. 

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? 
Being stupid and procrastinating. 

20. How did you spend Christmas? 
Still 10 days before Christmas but as always, I'll spend it with my wonderful family. :) 

21. How will you be spending new years?
With my family, eating lotsa food and looking at lotsa fireworks! 

22. Did you fall in love in 2010? 
I thought I did. 

23. How many one-night stands?
I don't do one-night stands, puhlease. 

24. What was your favorite TV program? 
Gossip Girl, Glee, The Walking Dead and Perfect match! <3 

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

26. What was the best book you read? 
The Perks of Being A Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky 

27. What was your biggest musical discovery? 
The Script, India Arie, Train, Sarah Bareilles, Bruno Mars 

28. What did you want and you got? 
A car and a job in one of the best TV stations 

29. What did you want and not get? 
Love. LOL Peace of mind. 

30. What was your favorite film of this year? 
500 days of Summer, HP 7 Part One 

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old did you turn? 
Went to SM San Lazaro with Dharel then had dinner with my family at Conti's, turned 21. 

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? 
Free days for traveling. 

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Comfy and casual as always. 

34. What kept you sane? 
Family, friends, music, books, movies and Baguio. 

35. Which celebrity did you fancy the most? 
Jason Mraz 

36. What political issue stirred you the most? 
Maguindanao Massacre, RH bill   

37. Who did you miss? 
Friends and Ed. 

38. Who was the best new person you met? 
Humble reporters, NOQ family especially Ali and Xien and DNG peeps Sir Josh, Stacy and Neil  

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010: 
Change is inevitable. 

40. Quote or Song Lyric that sums up your year: 
"It's never too late to be what you might have become." 

A loves A

Early morning of December 3rd,
 the day that Akihiro Sato met Anne Rose Gamboa, 
and the day that the greatest love story began. 

Things to look forward to

This weekend would be the start of my really MERRY Christmas season for lots of reasons! 

A. This Friday:  Payday and News on Q's Christmas party! I actually can't remember where we're gonna have it but as long as I'm with my big family with good food, games and music, I sure am gonna have one helluva great night! I'm so looking forward to it! ( Well, except for our mandatory intermission number. Sucks to be new LOL) 

AND! We're going to celebrate Ate Catha's birthday! After the Christmas party, we're planning to go to any karaoke then proceed to Banchetto, that is if we still have the energy and appetite to do so. 

B. This Saturday: Unang Hirit's Christmas party! We're going to have it at Mrs. Lyn Ching-Pascual's mansion. There will be games and an on the spot exchange gift giving. And again, I'm included in one of the performances but for a prize. LOL. I don't know if I should be excited or shit nervous about it. I haven't danced in public for four years. 

C. Next weekend: RESERVED FOR THE JEEP! We're going to have a Christmas party at Dharel's place wherein we have to be dressed as a TV/movie character. And I've decided to go as Rachel Berry so I hope Lian would not be a pain in the ass by going to the party as Rachel too. :)) Of course there's Monito Monita and we're going to bring food for the party. I bet we'd play Charades or Pinoy Henyo. I'm planning to make some happy juice for the group. *wink* 

I actually don't know if I will still be invited to other parties but if I will be, then more parties mean more fun... and more gifts. LOL. 

So, I'm sparing my Monito/Monita from the difficulty of thinking which gift I would like to receive so here's a short list of the things I want right now. 

1. A book that he/she knows that I really want. 
2. A jacket. Maybe have our names sewn at the back of it. LOL. 
3. Any clothing actually. Maybe a casual dress. A shirt? 
4. Yes, I've been dying for an external hard drive because my laptop's broken. 
5. A ring that wouldn't remind me of anyone or anything except the one who gave it. 
6. Money to have my laptop repaired. LOL 
7. A free day to do the things I want and be with the people I wanna be with.  
8. A Maroon5 ticket for their concert next year.
9. A date with my crush in the newsroom. :)) 
10. Errrr... A silver necklace? A new black tumblr? :)) 
11. A drug, or anything that could erase memories please. 
12. SHOES! Size 7 to 7 1/2 :) 

I actually just wrote this post for like five minutes because it's already 12:30 mn and I have to be awake by 2 a.m. sooo I have to say good night now 'coz I'm writing like a crazy, drunk kiddo. 

Hope you're also going to have fun for the next days and weeks to come! 

Don't Look For Love

The title itself, is one of the grandest things I learned this year, and is also that one thing I didn't quite practice.

You see, I was stupid. So stupid that I myself didn't even realize until the world shook me. I kept on trying and trying to find that love that I think could heal or make me forget the things or that person that had changed my life in such a brief time. 

I tried to date and get to know other guys, thinking I have already moved on. I've been in another relationship and after a few months I realized that actually, it's never going to be enough that someone is just there, or what other might say, someone "owns" you and you, "own" him. First, company can never compensate for true understanding; for being with someone who really knows you and can be there for you even without saying a word, or that someone who you can be yourself with. Second, nobody can ever own another; you only own yourself. 

I was impatient. I tried to develop feelings that I know couldn't even materialize because deep inside me, I know I didn't want to feel them. 

This could be mean or selfish of me, but there was this one time I tried to get know this person, I really didn't feel anything, and I know he felt the same way. I was looking at him and in my mind I was telling myself "like him, he's nice..etc.", but every freaking time I looked at him, I saw another person and my heart shouted "Save me, take me away from here". 

Don't get me wrong, I don't regret knowing these people, They've taught me a lesson or two. But what I regret is that I tried to look for love when what's true is that it finds you. 

And up to now, I believe in such a bittersweet way that love found me three years ago, during that one cold night in November in front of the UST church. 

All it took was a handshake and a nervous hello, and I knew we found each other. 

And I hope he'll find me again 'coz I'm not going anywhere.