Happy Christmas :)

Ever since my brothers and I became adults, our family never prepared much during Christmas Eve. Sometimes, it's because we don't have the luxury of time and energy to cook or even just buy something special. But most of the time, the reason was that we were rarely complete.

But this year, we just got the greatest news--- my brother Noel,who usually works during holidays, and my brother Albert who stays in a seminary in Baguio, would both be home for Christmas and New Year.

So even if we only had a simple Noche Buena and only had few gifts, the anticipation of being complete was more than enough to keep us smiling 'til January.

This was only part of the gifts and our Noche Buena, don't worry. :) 
And to cap off the night, we had a drinking session as a family. Mama had one glass of Black Label with Coke, I had two, while my brother finished everything that was left. 

By about 5 am in the morning on Christmas Day, Kuya Albert was already home. We woke up early to go to mass, went back home to welcome relatives and friends who came to visit us and then, we got ready for our Christmas dinner. 

Most of the restaurants were closed but luckily, Mesa, the modern Filipino-themed restaurant, was open! 

We had 7 different dishes, mostly seafood, rice and different drinks. It was such a sumptuous dinner that I didn't feel guilty that I ate too much! By the end of the night, we felt so warm, fuzzy and happy because we were so full. 

Hence, these crazy wacky photos. 

I am very thankful to God for letting me be a part of a family that fills my heart with so much joy and contentment. I am just amazed as to how they make a weekend seem like a long, crazy vacation. 

I love my family so much and I wouldn't ask for more. They're the best Christmas gift I have ever received. 

So I'd like to share the love I'm feeling right now. 
Merry, merry Christmas from our family to yours! 

December 12, 2011

           I spent my Sunday evening with Steve Morgan and hot cup of white chocolate dream latte. I tried so hard to be busy I didn't notice that by one in the morning, they were already closing the coffee shop. 

It's December 12. Everyone already packed their bags and left.The barista was already bringing the cups 
downstairs. The lights were dim and all I can hear was the janitor whistling a tune. 

I went down and stood in front of the door. I stared at the dark road and drowned myself in its silence. 

Half of me was happy to be out alone in a place we never knew together; my other half still wished you were here.

Planner for a Cause

     I finally got my 2012 Starbucks Planner yesterday at 8: 52 pm before I watched Happy Feet 2 with my brother and sister. I'm very grateful to Kuya Noel and Sir Josh for helping me get this. 

Some people may say that this planner's overrated and it's others people way to show that they are rich enough to buy 17 coffees worth 100 bucks or more each. But for me, it's been a wise decision getting this planner every year. Because aside from the fact that I just have to enjoy drinking my coffee to get this planner, I also get to help SparkHope, a charity that enriches children's live. 

So, kudos to Starbucks for helping other people for years and for making coffee lovers like me very happy. 

For THE Michael Josh Villanueva

Last Friday night, as you tried to put a red wig on my head, I fought the urge to cry. 

I suddenly remembered that April morning, I was at work and someone from the desk section told me I got a phone call. Clueless, I took the phone and it was you on the other line. You knew I had a fight with my dad and you told me to go upstairs to your office and tell you what happened. 

I told you I still had scripts to write so you went down to the newsroom to see me. That time, I didn't need tissues, you being there for me, and letting me cry while hugging you was more than enough. 

I never got to tell you how much I appreciate what you did, and how thankful I am for everything you've done for me, so here I am, being a coward and writing it all down instead of talking to you personally. 

You may not be my boss but I want you to know that I really look up to you. 

I admire how you work, how you love the people around you, how you stay strong despite of all the dilemmas you have. I admire how you love Team Awesome like they're your own kids. You are the best boss I've known. 

I admire how you love your friends like family, how you'd come to the newsroom, see a friend then hug them right there and then. 

And I am thankful that even if you've only met me for a year, you've treated me like I'm your good, old friend. You've been like a brother to me. 

You are such a great person that's why I don't get it why some people treat you so badly. 

But I just want you to know that you don't have mind them anymore. They don't deserve any of your time or emotion. They're like dark clouds but you're like the sun, and you'll always shine no matter what happens.

For the next few days, it would really be hard not seeing you and hearing you talk or laugh but I'll just always smile at the thought that you finally got that fresh new start that you so deserve.

I'll always be here for you, Sir Josh, whenever and if ever you'll need me.

I am very grateful that I met you in this lifetime. I'm sure I'll never meet another you or even someone like you.

You're incomparable and irreplaceable.

Thank for everything and cheers for more moments together!

You truly deserve all the happiness and love in the world.

The ever innocent Apple

Steve Morgan

Saved up for him for 1 year and 7 months. 
And finally, I got him last October 25, 2011. 
Around 6 in the evening at Digital Hub, Vira Mall, Greenhills. 
Thank you sir Charlie and sir Josh for helping me get my baby. 

Now, I'd like you all to meet Steve Morgan. 
And we've been falling in love with each other everyday. 

P.S. Alex, you'll always be loved and remembered. 


He knows who I am. With just one look, he knows if I’m elated or sad. And when he looks deep within my eyes, he clearly sees right through me.

He’s aware as how simple life is for me. How a late night stroll around his school with him would make me happy and how losing my ID for even just a few hours could make me upset.

He loved me just as I am. Before all those makeup, parties, dresses and success, he was there with me.
He understands me more than I could ever understand myself.

He was always there through the best and worst times. No matter what happened, he was there for me, listening to me and caring for me.

He was always himself when he was with me. No pretensions or exaggerations, and I gladly fell for him for who he is, and will fall for him for whoever he will be.

He let me in his life. He trusted me with his heart and loved me when I almost though that he shut himself from love. He knew in his heart that I love him sincerely that’s why he let me love him just as I wanted and could.

For all these and for countless things I could never put into words, I love him.  

Working with Danger

At the strike of twelve or even earlier, our team leaves the newsroom everyday bringing our equipment, gadgets, and our fear and excitement for another episode waiting to unfold.

Yes, I'm one of the writers/producers sent out everyday for Jiggy Manicad's new program, GMA News TV Quick Response Team. We go out of our comfort zones everyday to help the best field reporter get the freshest and biggest news and serve it to our audience.

I admit working on remote isn't easy. My parents are a bit worried and my brother clearly disagrees with what I do.  I understand that he just really cares for me but I love what I'm doing.

I may have felt sick and tired, been squished or toasted alive but I'm happy. I'm grateful that I get to be with a team that is eager to learn and give our audience a great and exciting episode everyday. I'm grateful that I get to learn from them and from one of the best reporters in our country. And I'm very happy to be of service to people.

Yes I know, it's dangerous but I'm willing to take the risk because all the fear and excitement that I feel everyday feeds my hunger for adventure and fulfillment.

I'm ready to embrace this job and I hope God continues to give me the strength and will to survive everyday.


Once, I had a dog named Aqua.

I never really knew his breed or why he was given to me at a very young age. Now that I try to recall, he looked like this, a corgi.

He was small and his fur was flesh. He was handed to me while I was seated at the front seat of our school service. He sat beside me and we both just stared out the window. That was the first time we met. 

When we brought him home, we let him stay in the living room. And I sat on the floor while watching him. I was playing with my brother when suddenly, I felt him on my back... he was humping me!  I patted him, hugged him while I was laughing so hard. What a crazy, crazy dog!

He was the smallest among our dogs, but he would always win during fights. I remember the days when he would come home all bloody and when we'd check up on him, he doesn't have any wound. Turns out our maid saw him fighting with bigger dogs earlier and he ended up triumphant. My parents said he was just like me, small but terrible. 

And I could never forget and understand the days that I would stay at our garage whenever I have a problem and he would just sit there staring at me looking all worried. And whenever I come home, he would come running to me like as if he'd been waiting for me all day to show up.

Through the years, we've been through so much. I was the only person he feared and he was the only dog I took care of.

But one day, our maid let go of Aqua and he never got back to us. I was so traumatized when I lost him. About two years after he got out, I saw him outside our gate again, staring at me. His other eye was a bit dislocated as if someone tried to kill him but I was sure it was him.

I let him in our house again, he stayed for two days then left.

That's why when I watched Hachiko, I couldn't help but cry because he reminded me so much of Aqua. They may not have the same story but they were both faithful dogs.

And up to now, I cannot forget him because I didn't just lose a dog, I lost a good, good friend.

And if one day I'd luckily get a dog again, I'd love him as much as I did love Aqua. 

Music for the One

After watching episodes of The Voice, I suddenly remembered one of the things that I think I should put in my bucket list.

You see, music has been a big, big part of my life. I've been singing since I was five years old. 

I sang for my dad while he was still working abroad, I sang in birthday, parties and programs. I sang with family and friends. I sang with someone I love.I sang  in a public place for my parents' 27th anniversary.  I always sing for God. 

But at this point in my life, I've been waiting for that moment to get on that one stage, and sing for the only man who would mean the whole world to me. 

I'd want to sing one song with my whole heart and sing it for him, as if telling him and all the people around that, look, there's the man that I love and I'm singing for him 'coz just like music, he's a huge part of my life. 

And that day I hope that man, whoever he is, would just smile with love and be proud and happy I had the confidence and courage to tell the whole world that he's the one for me.  

Full Circle

My life has been full of extreme ups and downs lately.

For weeks I've been to Batangas with work friends, Boracay with my best college friends, then a 5-day break with my family in Puerto Princesa. It was a ride of happiness, even if my body felt tired my soul was on a high! I was so inspired to work and to spread the love. I was so inspired to live.

Then in just one weekend, almost all of that goes down the drain. My eldest brother went back to his seminary in Baguio while my elder brother was rushed to the hospital for the first time because his lungs were infected. My parents are feeling down lately because of all this, too.

I didn't know what to do, who to talk to, where, how or from whom to get strength.

But tonight I went to church, I looked up and prayed to Him.

I thanked him for all the blessings and challenges he has bestowed on me, and I asked for strength for the coming days, weeks or years.

This life is full of uncertainties and surprises, but I know He is the only Truth in my life.

Not just a little unwell

I'm sorry if I haven't blogged for weeks, or maybe even months already. I was so busy with dry runs for the new GMA News TV shows that I'm part of then I became more busy these past two weeks as I stay in the office for like 15 hours everyday.

And because of that, I think all the stress,fatigue and long working hours had finally taken its toll on me.

Warning: If you're eating at this very moment, you'd have to stop reading or else you'd be sick like me. 

This Friday, as Japan faced series of quakes and tsunami, I had my perioid, I had fever and was getting chills and I couldn't eat well. All I had that day was a bowl of champorado and green peppermint tea. We had to extend our time for one show so I didn't have any choice but to work for 16 hours. After that, we went out to shake the stress away. While they were drinking and eating, I had to vomit and poop even if I didn't eat or drink anything. They already told me to go home so I did.

I just slept the pain off and when I woke up, I took a bath and ate, since mama told me maybe I was just hungry that's why I feel sick. Luckily I really felt better and decided that I can already go out with my friends Annie and Elle.

We ate out at Flaming Wings...and I vomited again in the comfort room. MAYGAD. I wasted the wicked oreos, buffalo wings and chicken tenders that I ate, what is wrong with meeeee. I brushed my teeth, cleaned up and proceeded to play Rockband still Katipunan.

We went home around 11 p.m. and I ate some oatmeal cookies with milk to fill in my stomach. And after a few minutes, I vomited again. When I was cleaned up and brushed my teeth, I spat and there's blood.

And this morning, I woke up feeling very hungry so I ate laing and rice, then I pooped twice. I don't know what's happening to me. I knew it, I'm dying at a young age. LOLJK. But no matter how much I love hospitals, when I'm the one who's sick, I don't want to being checked up.

I'm really tired, I feel so weak and I don't know how I'd function for the rest of the week.

God, help me.

Ikaw at Ako

No sugarcoatings.
No pretensions.
Sampung magsing-irog.
Isang awit ng pag-ibig.
Ito ang tunay na larawan ng pagmamahal.

Ikaw at Ako
Johnoy Danao 

Ikaw at ako
Nag-usap ang ating puso
Magsama habang buhay
Nagsumpaan sa Maykapal
Walang iwanan
Tag-init o tag-ulan
Haharapin bawat unos na magdaan

Sanay 'di magmaliw ang pagtingin
Kay daling sabihin, kay hirap gawin
Sa mundong walang katiyakan,
Sabay nating gawing kahapon ang bukas.

Ikaw at ako
Tayong dalawa, may kanya-kanya
Sa isa't isa tayo ay sumasandal
Bawat hangad kayang abutin
Sa pangambay, 'di paalipin
Basta't ikaw, ako, tayo...magpakailanman

Kung minsan ay 'di ko nababanggit
Pag-ibig ko'y di masukat ng anumang lambing
At kung magkamali akong ika'y saktan
Puso mo ba'y handang magpatawad

'Di ko alam ang gagawin kung mawala ka
Buhay ko'y may kahulugan tuwing ako'y iyong hagkan
Umabot man sa ating huling hantungan
Kapit puso kitang hahayaan

Ngayon at kailanman,
Ikaw at ako.

Day 30- Rollercoaster

Your highs and lows this month.

Highs would be weekends with my family and friends.

Lows would be my very challenging tasks for the new shows I would soon be part of. KILL ME NOW.

Day 29- Goals

Goals for the next 30 days. 

Get used to my new life in this new world. Help me, Lord. 

Day 28- Nostalgia

Something that you miss.

I miss everything about my second home, The Pontifical and Royal University of Santo Tomas. 

Day 27- Dilemma

A problem that you have had.

Since the last months of 2010 until now, it seems like I have skin asthma but I don't know why. I'm not allergic to any food but most of the time, after I eat in the canteen, I have this sudden itch and it's making me crazy. The same thing happens every time I go to some province. Because of the itch, I can't stop scratching and now I have more scars on my body and it's sooo ugly! I think I really need to go to see the doctor so I'd know what disease this is or if it's really a skin disease. I hope it's curable.

Day 26- Attraction

What kind of person attracts you. 

I don't have a specific type when it comes to men's physical appearance. I've liked guy with fair complexion, morenos, chinitos, negritos, tall guys, short guys (but of course not as small as I am), handsome guys, not so handsome guys, guys who are good.... period.

But when it comes to guy's attitude and capacity, hmm, at those aspects I could distinguish which guys I like. I like humorous guys; guys who don't try hard to be funny but are just really funny as who they really are. I like guys who talk, yes talk, but not too talkative that I would already feel that I'm mute. I just want someone who says what he wants to say, who knows how to give their opinion on things, someone who's honest and genuine. I also like witty and intellectual guys. I like men who really have ambitions in life, dreams that they know how to fulfill.

I may sound so demanding but I believe there are still these kind of guys and they're just around the corner, waiting to be loved and appreciated.

Day 25- Bewitched

Someone who fascinates you and why.

There isn't anyone particular who fascinates me, but I am always in awe when I see old couples who are obviously still very much in love with each other. I always wonder how they met, how or when they started being together, how did they manage to compromise, be with each other everyday and how they've made it through the years. I always try to think through my mind how many kids have they raised and let go but still find love in each other arms. I'm pretty sure they've been through all misunderstandings, problems and uncertainties but it really amazes me that after their ups and downs in life, they still wanted that certain person to love and cherish until their very last breath. They are the sole reason why I still believe in soulmates.

And someday, I hope I'll be with my own soul brother. <3 

Day 24- Reel

Your favorite movie and what is it about. 

Since I'm still very sick but I so want to blog, I'm just gonna borrow Jamie Talon's description of my favorite movie because at his age, he is already a very good film critic.

Charlie Kaufman and French director Michel Gondry collaborates for a heavily-stylized narration of a forgotten love affair. And oh yes, Jim Carrey could make you cry in this one.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind prances around the world of scientific weirdness. Haphazard twists are handed out from the beginning, and it depends on the viewer's mental capacity to sort these details out. If you're the kind of moron who's incessantly sticks to watching harebrained chick flicks, may I advise you to stay away from this film for it might insult your intelligence.

The story is set on a chilly month of February, when our two lovers, the indifferent Joel Barish (Jim Carrey) and the eccentric Clementine Kruczynski (Kate Winslet), crossed paths inside a spacious train. The two held interest in each other, and eventually fell in love at the end of the day.

The relationship didn't last for that long. Things have gone astray between the two and landed on an emotional break-up. Joel was welcomed the next day by the bizarre fact that Clementine "erased" him from her memory, with the help of Dr. Howard Mierzwiak (Tom Wilkinson). Enraged, Joel also enlisted the doctor's services and prepared himself to erase Clementine from his memory, just to put an end to all the emotional agonies he's been enduring since the break-up.

But it is during the whole erase-me process when Joel realizes that he just can't let go of his past love. Inside his subconscious, Joel and the disappearing memory of Clementine struggles to escape from the mind-erasing process just to preserve all the sweet memories.

And at the end, all the pieces fell perfectly on their rightful places. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind succeeds as one of the best romantic tales that the twisted minds of Hollywood could ever make up. The sweetness is unmatchable, the ever-lovable characters are truly unforgettable, and the crazed idea of screenwriter Charlie Kaufman is something worth ranting about.

Watching this movie was literally an emotion roller coaster ride for me. My heart was beating really fast and my whole world was in the movie, as if I was really included in the film. It found my weakest spot and twisted it that I couldn't help but give in to the emotion brought about by it.

If you haven't watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, watch it. Now. 

Day 23- Drool

Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.

When I was still in high school, I had a solo folder on my computer which contained hundreds of photos of my famous crushes so now, it's hard to just post 5 of them but I'll try and pick the ones I like most right now.

1. Adam Levine 

He said he spent most of his life naked. Well I understand that because for me, he's the hottest man alive. He's too sexy and his singing makes him sexier and makes him too irresistible. If I would be in prison with him, I'd even thank the guards for locking me up with this beast. 

2. Joseph Gordon-Levitt 

An actor who just doesn't have the looks but can act really, really well. He's versatile and someone who is always in character in his movies. From 10 Things I Hate about You 'till Inception, he has proven a lot in the movie industry. And no matter how he changes his looks and distorts his face, he'd always be handsome to me. 

3. Lee Min-Ho 

Chinitos represent! He's the actor who played as Gu Jun Pyo in "Boy over Flowers". His face is just so perfectly handsome and his body is ooh la la!  I'd marry him in a heartbeat and have korean kids with him. 

4. Andrew Arellano 

He's nice, goofy, restless,hot, smart, witty, handsome and sporty- what more can you ask for? Iya is so lucky  to have him and I'm happy they're together. But if ever they'll break up, I'll make sure he will be mine. LOLJK. When he smiles, it feels like I'm staring at a thousand suns. 

5. Akihiro Sato 

When I was still studying in UST, I missed the opportunity of meeting him in one of the TomWeb events, but still, it was fate that brought us together in GMA. One cold morning, he hugged me so tight in  the Unang Hirit studio and I could die at that very moment. But I guess I still have to live my life...and be with him forever. 

Day 22- Tube

One of your favorite shows.

I bet I am not the only person who grew up watching this series and found themselves in one of the characters of the show. Friends just didn't tackle friends, but the lives of each and everyone of us. For me, it's the mother of all series. :)

Day 21- Changes

How have you changed in the past two years?

    In terms of appearance, I think I didn't change at all. Maybe I just learned how to carry myself more. In emotional aspects, I've learned not to be desperately be in love and in a relationship. I also think I'm now tougher and I could handle things maturely. I'm not a crybaby anymore but a fighter. I'm not a whiner but a survivor. And slowly but surely, I'm getting a grasp at things, on what I want to do, who I want to be and show in the best way how the people in my life matter to me. I guess that's it.

Day 20- Education

How important you think education is.

Education is very important for me. I consider it a necessity. It's that one thing that somehow shapes your future; it leads you to who you want and what you want to be.

"Education is not the answer to the question. Education is the means to the answer to all the questions."
  -Willian Allin

Day 19- Respect

Disrespecting your parents

My dad and I used to fight a lot when he was still a liar and and a cheater. My mom and I still fight from time to time because we're both stubborn. But compared to the worst days and years of our lives, we can now be labeled as bestfriends. LOL.

I never wanted or meant to disrespect them, but at times, I have to constantly remind them whenever they compare their old ways with us that the world and culture of the youth nowadays is much, much different that theirs. I just hope soon, they would realize that so we could stop debating.

Day 18- Belief

Your beliefs

I believe that friends and family are the greatest treasures in life.
I believe in fate.
I believe in destiny; that there's somebody meant for everyone.
I believe that we only have one God, we just call Him with different names and glorify Him through different cultures.
I believe that dreams, no matter how impossible they may seem, can be fulfilled if only you believe them.
I believe that intelligence alone is not what makes people successful but rather, intelligence,wisdom and perseverance combined.
 I believe that books are dimensions to other worlds.
I believe in second chances.
I believe in love.
I believe in after-life.
I believe in ghosts.
 I believe that deep inside, every person is good.
 I believe in the power of music to change lives.
I believe in beauty, truth and freedom.
 I believe that change is inevitable.
I believe that everything happens for a reason.

Day 17- 2010

Your highs and lows this past year

Highs would be graduating, getting a job, having the time and means to travel and being surrounded with family, old and news friends.

Lows would be when I had my car wrecked and my second relationship which was such a huge mistake.

Day 16- Mainstream

Your views on mainstream music

      I don't see anything wrong with mainstream music,as most of them are good. It doesn't really matter if it's mainstream music or not that you listen to, as long as music touches your life and has that intimate or personal effect on you, then that's what matters.

Day 15- Tumblr

Your favorite tumblrs

5. icanread
6. architectureblog

Day 14- Consciousness

Your earliest memory

I can't remember how old I really was that time, maybe 3 or 4 years old? But my first memory would be that morning that my mom and I were at the dining table, she was feeding me fresh cuts of carrots and I was laughing. Now I know why my vision is still 20/20. Thanks mama!

Day 13- Teleport

Somewhere you'd like to move to or visit.

Even when I was just a little kid, I always told myself that before I die, I should've already been to Paris and seen the Eiffel Tower with my very eyes. I hope soon, I could fulfill that life-long dream. 

Day 12- Flow

Bullet your whole day

  • Woke up at around 5 am, realized it's still early so I slept again
  • Got a call from sir Jeff and realized it's just 10: 30 so I slept again
  • Then woke up at 1pm and realized then I woke up too late 
  • Ate pizza from last night
  • Took a bath 
  • Took a taxi to work 
  • Chatted with Cha for the EK transpo 
  • Attended NOQ daily storycon 
  • Ate at Chicboi with Ali, Xien and Doy 
  • Freshened up 
  • Wrote initial scripts 
  • Got tweets for the iPad segment from Stacy 
  • Got Youscoop stories from Lian 
  • Wrote 8 scripts
  • Took the role as Grace Lee's floor director again 
  • Hung out with Sir Josh, Lian, Stacy and Neil at the TOC
  • Left GMA to have late dinner with them 
  • Tried to eat in Bang Bang coffee, saw Baldr there but the cafe's full 
  • Ate pastas at Brooklyn with them and Dylan 
  • Sat beside him as he drove me home 
  • Got a call from sir Josh 
  • Chatted with Ali 
What a day! <3 

Day 11- Shuffle

Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

  1. Between the Lines- Sara Bareilles
  2. Not Falling Apart- Maroon 5
  3. It Ends Tonight- The All-American Rejects 
  4. This Love- Maroon 5
  5. 1,2,3,4- Plain White T's 
  6. Somewhere down the Road-Nina 
  7. Keep on Hoping- Jason Mraz
  8. Love- Matt White
  9. You Belong to Me- Jason Wade
  10. Dreaming with A Broken Heart- John Mayer 

Day 10- Firsts

Discuss your first love and first kiss.

      I first fell in love when I was in First year high school. He was mysterious, corny, childish and unpredictable. I was in love with him for four goddamn years,  then he fell in love with my seatmate who was his busmate. On my 18th birthday, I took that last chance to dance with him for the last time, and formally bid goodbye. Now, I don't ever want to see him again. He's the ghost of my painful past. LOL.

      My first kiss happened two years ago. We were in UP, his school. He was asking me something and I was so nervous my heart wanted to jump out of my chest that I couldn't answer and look at his eyes, and when I tried to, he kissed me. And I'm still in love with that same person until now.

Day 9- Ahead

How you hope your future will be like.

     In the coming years, I would still want my papa and mama to be happy together, and finally get married in a church. I hope my elder brother is finally with someone who will take care of him while my eldest brother will be a father... in a church. 

   I hope I would still be in touch with the people who really matter to me. My friends have been such a big, big part of my life and I want them all to be happy. 

   I hope Christine would finally be able to follow her dreams, Annielen will be a doctor, Maann and Char to be successful in their own fields, Elle designing the garden of my mansion while Fatsy finally finishing her studies. 

    I hope theJeep will be successful in jobs that they really love. I really hope we all get married and our kids will be one big barkada and they would call their group "Spaceship" or whatever high tech since we're talking about the future. 

   I hope I'd get to travel and travel and travel with them, or my workfriends who would be then bosses, or with the man I'm married to. 

    As for my own future, I'd really want to be a broadcast journalist, and get married to the right man who may not be perfect but fit just for me, have wonderful smart kids and live the life I deserve. 

   Lastly, I want world peace. Nah, I'm kidding. :)) No, I'm kidding seriously. Or whatever. 

Day 8- Bliss

I'm so sorry I wasn't able to follow this challenge for ten days! I was too busy enjoying my January. Let me make it up to you.

A day you felt the most satisfied with your life.

That day, it didn't matter that I didn't get to be cum laude, or that I was too small for all the people in PICC to see. What mattered was that all the hard work I did for 16 years finally paid off, and that I spend this day with  my friends and family who I love with all my life.

Day 7- Aquarius

Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality 

I actually really don't care about the said changes on our zodiac signs so I'm still sticking to my original zodiac, Aquarius which I think most traits fit my personality.

Aquarian traits according to Astrology Online:

  • friendly
  • humanitarian 
  • honest loyal 
  • original 
  • inventive
  • independent 
  • intellectual
  • intractable 
  • contrary
  • perverse
  • unpredictable
  • unemotional 
  • detached 
I think I possess all traits expect being unemotional and detached. 

Aquarians like:
  • Fighting for causes 
  • Dreaming and planning for the future 
  • Thinking about the past 
  • Good companions
  • Having fun
Aquarians dislike: 
  • Full of air promises
  • Excessive loneliness
  • The Ordinary 
  • Imitations
  • Idealistic 
I agree to everything except hating idealism. 

Day 6- 30 things

Write 30 interesting facts about yourself. 

I have a feeling that this will be hard but I'll try. Lezdothis!

  1. I tried to pee while standing up at the age of 4. And I did that beside my brothers while both of them were also peeing on the wall. I was upset because my urine didn't move upward like theirs. LOL 
  2. I like the word cliche, I don't know why, I just like it. 
  3. As my friends say, I've cried during all the movies we've watched, of course not during comedy and chick flick ones, I'm not that retarded. 
  4. I hate mayonnaise-It's taste, texture, ugh everything about it. 
  5. I don't always clean my room but when I do, I spend half of the day doing it.
  6. I swear too much when I see a flying cockroach. 
  7. If I have to eat just one thing for the rest of my life, that would be pizza. 
  8. My nickname is Apple because when I was still a baby, my cousins called me An-an like the skin disease because I had white complexion. So my mom decided to name me after one of her favorites which was closest to my real name when she was still conceiving me, instead of Snickers, or Dunkin Donut or worse...Sharon Cuneta. 
  9. I want fraternal twins as my children. 
  10. I really, really like men who read books. 
  11. Then I hate guys who are too buff they look like walking bakeries because of too much pandesal on their body. LOL 
  12. I love the smell of hospitals. It calms me. 
  13. I'd like to have a monochromatic house when I get to have my own family. 
  14. Any bookstore is my second home. 
  15. I really feel so lucky that I am so blessed with such a good family and good friends.
  16. I'm addicted to bags. When I usually go with my mom to the mall, she would not let me pass by bag stores because I'd surely make her buy one for me. 
  17. My family and I ate at the Manila Hotel after my college graduation just for me to get to eat Baked Alaska again. Because back in senior prom, I just had a bite of that dessert when suddenly, I was called up the stage to get an award and when I came back to our table, the delicious Baked Alaska's gone. If only I knew the waiter who took it, I'll kill him. Kidding. 
  18. My deceased laptop is named Alex, my camera's name is Andy. I like unisex names.
  19. My highschool friends and I swore that if we'd get to have daughters, their second name would be Chrisannielle, the name of our barkada. 
  20.  I'd really want to get married to Jason Mraz. I worship him for his great music. 
  21. I want to chew on tupig right now. It's my usual craving. 
  22. I love Italian restaurants.
  23. Before I die, I'd have to see the Eiffel tower.
  24. I grew up watching Jackie Chan movies so I'd really want to meet him. 
  25. I want to be a broadcast journalist, and I'd do everything to achieve that dream. 
  26. I want someone to take a picture of me while I'm wearing a dress, holding balloons and sort of running in the middle of a street, preferably in UP. 
  27. I am so in love with music, I couldn't live without it. 
  28. I barely get mad but when I do, beware. 
  29. I'm planning to take my parents abroad next year so we can experience snow together, hmmm, maybe Korea? 
  30. I've never rode a carabao before, and I want to. 

Day 5- End

A day you thought about ending your own life.

That one time was when I knew about my dad's infidelity and his dark secrets that permanently ruined our relationship.

That was the day he tried to end his life, too.

Day 4- Religion

Your view on religion 

I remember that day in college when one of my guy friends who belong to a different church cornered me before break time, telling me to believe in what he believes.

I cried, not because of fear but because of hatred and disgust of being told what to believe in. I don't hate his religion or any religion, I just know that I am entitled to my own belief and opinion.

And just to let him know if he's probably reading this, I don't have any problems with other religions because I firmly believe that we may have different churches, traditions and cultures, and we may have different names for  the One Above, but I know that we believe, trust and love only one God.

Day 3- Drugs and Alcohol

Your view on drugs and alcohol 

I don't hate both, drugs and alcohol. I've never tried taking drugs though I admit I've thought of it once because of those "brownies" stories from friends who studied in another university. I am an occasional drinker, and sort of became a casual drinker when I was in college.

My point is, I don't judge people if they take drugs and alcohol, even if their are addicts and alcoholics. It's their life not mine. As I always say back then, I just hate the habit not the person or the vice, because I believe that drugs and alcohol could be harmful to some and could also be helpful.

Well, that would be all, thank you.

Day 2- 10 years

Where you'd like to be in 10 years

I only do short-term plans, and I sometimes even let my impulsive attitude take over because most of the good things that happened in my life were made possible by life's surprises or my sudden decisions.

But now that I've really given a chance to think about it, I'd probably want to be married by that time. And probably have a kid or two (a girl-boy twin maybe)  but I won't be living anywhere abroad. I'd still choose to live here, and pursue my dreams of being a broadcast journalist. Or maybe I could be in another country, take Paris for instance, but I'll be there for a vacation with my family.

Mind you, these aren't plans but dreams that could somehow help me visualize my future, or help me know that my life is going somewhere sensible and that I'm taking the path worth taking. But right now, life's been continually surprising me so I could never tell what the future holds.

But if ever I'll be too impulsive and get really crazy starting today, in ten years I'd be in a hospital....

single and busy but very, very happy because I'm following my dreams of being a pediatrician. /wrist

Day 1- Current Relationship

I'm itching to write a blog post but I practically don't know what to say or share, so I'm just going to do this 30-day meme which Jicky is already doing. I was supposed to start this on January 1st but but I still had too many things to share back then, so here it goes.

Day 1- Current Relationship 
Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

I'm single, and I've been single for five months already. I just came from a foolish relationship that I was too foolish to be in so I was extremely happy for the first months or so that I was finally free.

But I must admit that being back to single life has its up and downs as much as being in a relationship.

The ups may include having so much free time to be with friends and family, having the chance to have as many crushes as you want without anyone getting mad, having the time to travel and having the freedom to do, wear, say whatever you want, especially if you were with a guy who was too possessive and psycho. (Eherm guilty) Downs may include lonely nights, not being able to watch movies or go to places because no one that you know is free or wants to go, no one to share things and moments with, no one to cuddle during cold nights especially during these months and no one to share that great love you have deep within. Yes, cheesy but true.

I must admit I miss being in a relationship but I don't want to waste my feelings and my life with someone who I shouldn't be with anymore just like my last relationship. I don't want to mess up my life and someone else's so right now, I choose not to like someone first seriously unless I really feel that my heart and mind unites with the decision that I should be with that someone.

Bottomline is, I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't want to get hurt again unless the pain is so worth it.


        2010 is ironically the worst and best year for me. I wasn't able to fulfill my college goals, got my heart so broken and fooled, still had some family issues and more friends went abroad. I also did a lot of mistakes and I almost lost myself in the process of trying out new things and figuring out who I really am. But the grandest things happened and took me by surprise like my dad being a good man again which made my mom so happy, graduating and getting a job in GMA, my brothers being awesome at work and in the seminary, keeping old people in my life and welcoming new ones. And these things that happened and people surrounding me made me realize that I don't have to be someone else to be happy. I just have to at best at being me. (Did I make sense?) 

And I know this blog post is not enough to express my gratitude for these people who gave meaning and purpose not just to my 2010 but to my entire life. I'm thankful to God that he made me realize that not everyone leaves; there are actually these people who would wholeheartedly stay in my life and I'm thankful that once I've known them. I really hope they would continue to shine on my life.

Thank you 2010, now let's not just count the days of 2011 but make them count!